Hi Kristina! <3
You were my girl too, I was devastated when you left because I was willing to risk my game and go to rocks for you. Unfortunately, David had other ideas. I honestly wanted to go to the end with you and Grant, you were the people I felt I connected with the most, and shared the most information with, and vice versa. I don't think I really had any genuine deals which I kept from you. Mike, Grant, David and I had somewhat of a Final 4 deal, which I admit I kept from you, because I didn't want you to doubt my loyalty. You and I also had a Final 4 with Grant/Ashley, which obviously, Ashley broke away from. That was the alliance I was for sure wanting to go with, Grant and I discussed getting to Final 7 with both alliances, so we would be in the middle of both. This was back at Final 9, when we planned to eliminate Whitney and Julie. I think strategically, we were on the same wavelength, so we ensured we would be able to get to the end regardless. But the plan was always to have you and me in the end! I did have some double deals so I was worried how I was going to make it happen, but I'm sure I would've. I wasn't willing to go to rocks for you, for nothing.
Like I said, I did have working relationships with more or less everyone on Ovambo, it's no coincidence that I was voted at the top of the boot list in that challenge early at the merge, because for the most part, all of Ovambo genuinely did have me in their end game plans. I made sure of it, because I wanted to have options everywhere I turned. You say you're hearing on the jury I had deals with everyone that you didn't know about previously, well, I think that speaks for itself. I was socially charming, people genuinely did want to work with me. You and Grant in particular were appealing to me, because I knew you could be my "shields" and be perceived as bigger threats. Even though I never planned on turning on either of you, I felt if there was an idol play or a flip, both of you would be targeted before me. It's a shame the way it played out, obviously losing my two closest allies back to back, but it did keep me in the game and give me a chance to recuperate.
Yes, I found Hidden Immunity Idols and won challenges. If you take that away, I really don't really see what David/Mike did over me? To me, it just adds to my résumé. David/Mike didn't have nearly the same working relationships with the rest of the players in the game. To me, finding Hidden Immunity Idols and winning challenges, requires skill and dedication. I don't see how that's any less admirable than two lucky rock picks (Mike) and surviving because someone forgot to vote (David).
Good luck with your decision!