by David » Mon Apr 07, 2014 7:12:49 pm
It's an hour before the challenge starts, and I'm freaking out. I need to win this. This is by far the most important challenge of the game thus far. It could be the thing my alliance needs in order to get to the end. I know Steph has the idol, so if I were to win immunity, I would be safe, Steph would be safe, and Mike would be safe if it went to rocks because they wouldn't have a choice but to vote for him. If no one in my alliance wins immunity, then...I don't know. I'm still scared of those rocks, and you just know that I would draw the purple one. It would be the ultimate bitchslap from karma. You didn't want to be rocked out at final 8??? Oh, well, I just rock you out at final 6. I don't want to go yet. I hope this challenge can play up my strengths a little bit. What strengths one might ask? Well, I don't know, but I just hope it can be a secret strength of mine so I can win.
I was telling Mike earlier about how fear has had such a hold on me this entire game, and I don't want it to hold me down anymore. But at the same time, I can't help what I feel, and I just feel like I could go home tonight, and I don't want that. I thought I would be a ruthless, cunning, backstabber in this game, and I'm finding that to be untrue. I can't help but to channel my emotions whenever I'm making a decision, but I don't think that's a bad thing. I actually consider a strength of mine in this game. I think when you rely solely on one thing to guide you through the game, you end up being burned. I've relied on not only my brain, but my heart as well. Not every decision was based solely on strategy or emotions. I tried to find a good balance between the two, and it's worked out for me so far. As more and more people leave the game, it gets much harder to balance things. So I just hope everything doesn't come tumbling down tonight.
